A) but good:
When you say to someone, "I'm feeling kinda depressed lately."
"I've stopped eating"
"I'm worried that I have some crap coming up, and I'll need more social support than I have over the next couple of months."
They tend to say: "oh."
But if you make an emo blog posting that basically says, "I'm feeling kinda depressed lately," they call you and say, "I saw your blog, and I'm just checking in."
"I saw your blog. . . are you ok?"
"I saw your blog. Come have an extra hug."
So. . . thanks. :)
B) or just strange:
I made a list.
things I might want to spend time/effort/energy on, in order of their importance to me:
3) Improving my ability to get shit done (Executive function)
4) Good relationships (healthy, enjoyable, and fulfilling? someday, perhaps. . .)
5) Being able to care for myself
6) Being thin
7) Having a life work
8) Improving physical health
9) Learning French
11) Learning music theory
12) (?) material independence? (I am not sure if this belongs on the list, or where it goes.)
notes on this list:
-It is weird.
-Virtually everything I spend time on or consider important is reflected here, somehow or other
-Items 8 through 12 all have specific weird explanations
-Items 1 and 2 vie for position, but I figure as long as I'm alive, if I irredeemably destroy my self-respect I can always kill myself later.
-I wonder if item 4 is appropriately placed. I mostly think it's ok. However, item 5 is likely a prerequisite for item 4. Reassuring.
-Items 6 and 7 switch order frequently. Here is evidenced the fucked-up-ness of me. The fact that I am honest about these priorities does not mean I've entirely accepted them.