Friday, June 06, 2008

updates




I've been doing a lot of rethinking my goals, lately. I think a lot of the things I'd been planning to do sort of have more relevance to what I think I should do, than to what I want to do. .

and what I want to do matters too.

So I've had a shift in focus; instead of "get all that serious traveling out of the way before I settle down," my main goal is now to do whatever it takes, whatever I need to do, to get my brain in the right place to go back to school and get a bachelors. There's lots of bits and pieces to this; the fact of taking a break, as I am pretty burned out on school, and working. . doing some minor bits of travel, reading. . . focusing on independence and stability. It's nice to own, or at least shortly own, where I live and what I drive. . .

In terms of independence, it's hard not not to be a little freaked out about our national energy system/crisis these days. That's part of the why for my gardening kick, which hasn't been working out very well. . . I guess I need to start small. I'm trying really hard to get in the habit of growing my own sprouts, and I have one rosemary plant. . if it's still in excellent health a month from now, I'll try to expand my repretoire by another potted herb. :D (not that kind of potted herb. :P)

I guess it's reasonable that I should suck at gardening till I've read half of what there is to know about it. . . that's how it's worked with everything else.

So, here I go, being minorly (and awesomely) employed, gardening, reading, learning about technology. . a pre-garden, a bicycle, increasingly specific plans for shorter trips to Europe, and a case of ramen are to prepare me for the future and apocalypse. . . but it's all good, cause at the moment, this is really what I want to do. :)

3 comments:

rman1iscool said...

Thinking is a good thing. My goal in life is madness.

I escape fear, but then again, I am not concerned with nations. To me, the rational energy policy will recognize that energy is part of a market, and criticize what is happening based upon the goodness/badness of that system, rather than by national lines.

That is sort of good and cool.

Day said...

"To me, the rational energy policy will recognize that energy is part of a market, and criticize what is happening based upon the goodness/badness of that system, rather than by national lines."

heh.. . yes, this is why I am a market communist (some would say syndicalist). No use not using the things we know.


What manner of madness?

as one of my dear friends likes to say, "in a world full of unreason, reason must appear mad. . ."

___________________________ said...

Well, right, I just mean that I am distrusting of any politician who says "national energy policy" because they are working in an international market. Not saying outright market or not market.

The determined to do something that most consider pointless kind.