Friday, June 06, 2008
I've been doing a lot of rethinking my goals, lately. I think a lot of the things I'd been planning to do sort of have more relevance to what I think I should do, than to what I want to do. .
and what I want to do matters too.
So I've had a shift in focus; instead of "get all that serious traveling out of the way before I settle down," my main goal is now to do whatever it takes, whatever I need to do, to get my brain in the right place to go back to school and get a bachelors. There's lots of bits and pieces to this; the fact of taking a break, as I am pretty burned out on school, and working. . doing some minor bits of travel, reading. . . focusing on independence and stability. It's nice to own, or at least shortly own, where I live and what I drive. . .
In terms of independence, it's hard not not to be a little freaked out about our national energy system/crisis these days. That's part of the why for my gardening kick, which hasn't been working out very well. . . I guess I need to start small. I'm trying really hard to get in the habit of growing my own sprouts, and I have one rosemary plant. . if it's still in excellent health a month from now, I'll try to expand my repretoire by another potted herb. :D (not that kind of potted herb. :P)
I guess it's reasonable that I should suck at gardening till I've read half of what there is to know about it. . . that's how it's worked with everything else.
So, here I go, being minorly (and awesomely) employed, gardening, reading, learning about technology. . a pre-garden, a bicycle, increasingly specific plans for shorter trips to Europe, and a case of ramen are to prepare me for the future and apocalypse. . . but it's all good, cause at the moment, this is really what I want to do. :)