Wednesday, March 31, 2010

I'm sure it's more complicated than this, but--Let's pretend there are two parts to Day. There's hyper-critical (in the good way of critical), academic, intellectual me, who is smart, often a jerk (though often on accident), and to some people intimidating. Then there's the soft nougatie center: melodramatic, playful, silly, self-important, exceptionally empathetic, passionate, sad, and in many ways childlike--in short, unapologetically emotional as all hell.

Introspective thought of the Day: Both personas make people uncomfortable. The thing that sometimes makes people comfortable is to put on diplomatic-face, which is EXHAUSTING--and feels more like a hard earned skill than an authentic presentation of myself. Except, I do authentically want to make people comfortable. Sometimes. In some ways. I think.

No sir, I am Not prickly. I don't know why you people say those things about me. Humph.

An exception: Day in a crisis--who is simply badass. Maybe I'm just more comfortable around people who are uncomfortable?

Lately, childlike emotional Day seems to have been putting in more appearances. Oh crying in public. . . you knew I wouldn't abandon you.

surely there's got to be some sort of middle ground?


___________________________ said...

Nah, you are probably better off with going with full-on multiple personality disorder than finding middle ground.

Day said...

is there some sort of libertarian-psychological-theological point to this comment?

___________________________ said...

No. Should there be?

Day said...

Yes. Usually you do better than just taking the obvious shots.

___________________________ said...

Well, I was feeling lazy.

I mean, I suppose one could go deeper and talk about how self is a narrative anyway that cannot be accounted for philosophically with a simple focus on traits like personality, matter, structure, and so on. And I could also claim that multiple personality disorder is possibly an extreme version of normal persona shifts. And even further assert that unification of a self can never be *real* because a fiction is not real, and because our behavior is contextually driven given how heavily context can impact our memories, spur our responses, and so on. But, I am lazy.

I am not sure if I have sent you these before, but here's two articles: